Let God...

Recently, I've come to realize the full extent to which I am blessed. Sometimes it's super easy for me to forget all the good when I feel completely consumed by the bad, but more often than not, I realize that all of the nasty stuff that goes on with me pales in comparison to all of the AMAZING blessings I have received. I have never seen God work in such crazy ways as I've seen these past few months; however, God throws the occasional curveball, and that seems to really send me spinning. I know that God does everything for a purpose. Even in the midst of difficulties, God is working it all out for my good. I recently had someone sit in my car with me for an hour while I cried about the bad, and she told me that God was going to do something good through it all. And after that conversation I realized that I had just been crazy blessed by God! Even though I was complaining about some things that seemed really awful, I just had someone sit in my car with me and listen to me sob about it! And I realized that God was doing something really good right therein that situation. I am blessed because even though bad things happen, God makes EVERYTHING work out for my good, and he brings people into my life to help me through it, and I may not see it at the time, but when I pay attention to how God works for me, it makes me feel all the more loved, cherished, and adored by Him. Sometimes I feel inadequate and small, and I cry and ask God why He's letting these things happen to me. And it's as I type this that I think I can begin to formulate an answer...he is allowing these "bad" things happen to me, so that I might be able to open up to whatever amazing things he has in store. Sometimes God needs me at my weakest in order for Him to do what he needs to do, and that's ok. Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for good not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." Everything God does is in my best interest, not to make me suffer, and I'm continually learning that. But for now I'm going to let go and let God--let God bring people into my life, and take them away, let God lead me down one path even if I thought the other was better, let God speak to me, and be willing to listen.