Whew! I have so much on my mind...where to start?
Ok, we'll start here: first of all...thank you! Thanks for clicking on this page and reading my random thoughts that decide to come spilling out through my fingertips, and onto this screen...it means a lot.
Second: Do you ever feel like you have no idea what you're supposed to do? Do you ever feel like even if you thought you knew what you wanted to do you weren't smart enough, or skilled enough, or patient enough to do it? I've been feeling like that lately. I'm a junior in high school, and that means one thing...college. You'd think I'd be really excited, being out on my own, making my own choices, not having my parents to tell me what to do, well, I couldn't feel further from that. I'm scared out of my mind. And I'm not exaggerating! I am legitimately terrified; I'm scared of being on my own, and making my own choices, and I'm scared of not having my parents around to tell me what to do! But most of all I feel inadequate. Inadequacy is defined as:
"...not enough or not good enough: failing to reach an expected or required level or standard."
I hate it that I feel this way. It's horrible, and untrue, and sad. I know I'm adequate, but sometimes it is hard to believe that when so much is on the line...I mean, college is a HUGE deal! But I know that I am good enough, I am enough, and this is how I know:
Do you not know that you are God's temple and that God's Spirit dwells in you?
{I Corinthians 3:16}
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.
{Psalm 139:13-14}
So, now matter how huge your feelings of inadequacy are, just remember you are enough--you are good enough, smart enough, enough. And that's all you need to be. I promise.
